Finally Talking with James

[piwakawaka]

Watching James practice with his new team has been fascinating, this is so clearly where he belongs. The only problem is Tiwa isn't sure where she fits, he's in the changing room so quickly that she doesn't know what to say when someone asks her if she's his girlfriend.

When she gets the question, she manages a quick smile and a lie about just a friend before sitting as high up as she can be without flying.

The team is wonderful and finally seeing what he's meant to be doing when flying, but that ache of what are they is still there.

At the end of the practice, she's not sure where to wait and so sits near the bottom of the stands instead of being with the crowd of girlfriends and wives.

Comments

[piwakawaka]

"I always try to be,"

She has since early on because that's something that matters with him.

[notthatpotter]

He nods.

"This is going to sound a bit stupid, and I apologize ... but -"

He lets out a breath.

"Right. What exactly do you think we are? I mean - what do you think about ... about me?"

[piwakawaka]

Its not quite the question she expected and its kind of terrifying. She looks up at him and feels at a loss,

"You're James. You keep me on the ground and make me feel fluttery. Things aren't simpler when you're around, but I want you to be there."

[notthatpotter]

James nods.

He's not even sure if it helps ... but ... well, it is an honest answer. And he'd asked for that.

He rests his hands on her arms.

"So, what are we doing? What were those kisses and the dancing and all that?"

[piwakawaka]

"I don't know. I thought they were wonderful, but what do you think we are? Whatever we are can't be just one of us, its both or it'll just hurt,"

She wants to shift into his arms, she really does, but she needs to know what he wants.

At the moment, she feels as if it would be easier to turn into a ball of feathers and leave than hear what he has to say.

She's just so scared that he'll decide she's not what he wants.

[notthatpotter]

"Don't be nervous," he says, smiling a little.

(Which is entirely stupid to say, considering how nervous he is.)

"I don't know what we are - never have, really. And sometimes ... I feel like it's not a problem."

But only sometimes.

Other times ...

"But what we did, what happened ... I don't regret a moment of it. It was brilliant, really."

He shrugs, helpless.

"And ... I don't know. I don't think I want that to stop."

[piwakawaka]

"I don't either. That's what makes me nervous, sometimes it seems like not thinking about it should be simpler but its not,"

Now she does move towards him, just a step but its into his arms,

"I want to be an us."

[notthatpotter]

"Yeah?"

He knows that he probably sounds a bit stupid, but his smile widens.

"All right," he says. "Let's be an 'us', then. You and me, Tiwa. Together."

[piwakawaka]

She giggles and feels rather giddy and he'll be able to feel her actually relax,

"Yes, please."

[notthatpotter]

He gently rubs her arms, a sort of soothing motion, before one hand moves to touch her cheek.

"So. I'm going to kiss you now."

[piwakawaka]

"Good,"

The rubbing feels nice and she puts her arms around him and beams up at him.

[notthatpotter]

"Brilliant."

He tilts her chin up towards him and kisses her.

And really, it's kind of perfect.

[piwakawaka]

Its so wonderful to just kiss him and not worry about anything.

She stops to take a quick breath and lean on him, she's still fluttery just the good kind now.